I remember my overwhelming feeling being one of shame. How had I allowed myself to get into this situation? This was quickly followed by anger at myself and then a sense of blind fear and panic at what would happen if this got out? My reputation would be trashed. I’d thought I’d managed to cover my tracks but my behaviour was becoming increasingly erratic and I’d already lost several lucrative jobs.
In the end it was my agent who sat me down and put it to me bluntly: get help now, before it’s too late. But the last thing I could afford to do was be seen publicly to be checking into treatment. Privacy was so important to me and I didn’t want to be just another ‘celebrity goes into rehab’ story.
Phoenix was different. To be honest, I’d never heard of the place although as they explained to me, their clients’ profiles are high so they keep theirs low. I stayed for two months and can honestly say they were two of the hardest but most amazing times of my life. My life and career are now back on track, my relationships with my wife, my family and, especially, my kids have improved beyond measure. I feel like I’ve been given a second chance and I’m taking it!